Monday, September 22, 2008

Coming out of the dark

This whole attitude adjustment I've been talking about has been a huge wake up call for me. Not only have I been living in a pity party, I also haven't been LIVING. The daily caring for four children, a cat, a house and a spouse has pushed my life into the background. Honestly, blogging has been the only thing I've done for myself in a long time. It gives me a chance to escape the duties of my life and focus on friends. Sure, I have to fit it in among dinner, dishes, laundry, changing diapers, escaping kids, bickering children, but I DO IT. I certainly can't say that about other facets of my life.

So, on Saturday I went to scrapbook with my friend Angie. It was so nice to have a few hours without my family to regroup and spend time with her (and all her customers too). Sadly, I had a snafu and LEFT MY PICTURES HERE and my loving husband kindly drove the 40 minutes to bring them to me (I felt so bad asking, but it turned out I had his wallet in my pocketbook!). I got Meg's baby album almost complete (mind you, she'll be 8 in January) and I worked a bit on Drew's baby album. I came home feeling refreshed.

Sunday I woke up less stressed and lighter than I have in a long time. Coming to the realization that I have to take time for me and enjoy it has been so good for me. The guilt is starting to wash away. I can't be a good wife or mother if I can't be good to myself. I'm sure that there will be days when things are dark and gloomy, but right now it feels so good to be coming out of the dark.

8 comments:

AndreAnna said...

Yay you! So proud of you.

A happy momma is a good momma!

Jill said...

Good for you! I know what you mean about putting yourself last. I do it too, but it's just so hard to get out of that habit! I'm glad you found a way

Kellie said...

You're right. You can't be good at all those things if you're not good to yourself. I'm so glad you got the time to do something for YOU. I get a few hours every Monday night to myself and it's Heaven.

Robyn said...

Good for you! A happy mommy is better than a frazzled one with an immaculate house (or so I keep telling myself).

And now I'm going to stop beating myself up for not finishing Bear's baby book or 1st year album!

creative kerfuffle said...

YEAH! i'm sooooo very glad you had some me time. it's hard sometimes to make that happen, but so well worth it really. and you are right, if you're refreshed, rejuvenated, etc. everything else seems better too.
and i too have not finished kids scrapbooks : ( hell, i have film undeveloped from when they were babies (back before digital).

CassJustCurious said...

Hooray for you. I struggle with that "need to get away" feeling and then when I'm away I don't treasure the moments because I'm hung up on what I'm missing or what i'll have to do when I get back. I will be taking a lesson from you here!

Di said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better. I've been feeling the same lately, and I've only got Miss Baby. Hubs and I had a big talk about making the house work better last night.

End result - I get a whole day each month to myself. So excited!

Di

Dana said...

This is terrific!!! Good for you, Kristin!!